A River for a Void

I loved you with all my heart, a river, deep and vast,

While all you ever loved was a mirror of your past.

I gave you everything I had to give,

But still, it was not enough for you to live.

You said you stopped loving me, yet laid the blame on me,

Accused my love of being something you could not see.

I was the hand that helped you up when you would fall,

But you blamed me for your failures, and for them all.

All I wanted was a glimmer of your grace,

Instead, you gaslit and blamed me in this lonely space.

You walked away, the one who chose to leave,

But you took the victim's crown, a story you wove to deceive.

I held your name as sacred, a truth I couldn't shake,

But to you, I was just a chapter, easy to erase.

You labeled me as selfish, in a final, cruel decree,

But you were the echo in the void, the only one you'd ever see.

Love you Keanu

 

I never wanted a cat. I had always been a dog person since I was a kid. I reluctantly went to the Animal Shelter as my partner wanted to get a cat, and I wanted her to be happy. She and I went through the website before leaving for the shelter, and we had already chosen a kitten we wanted to adopt. She was a cute little thing. But then, when we were playing with her, this little guy grabbed my shirt and called me towards me. He wanted to play too. I loved him so much that I decided then and there that we should get him instead. That was the best decision I ever made. The shelter named him Gonzalez. I named him Keanu. My little beautiful Keanu, who no longer lives with me. I miss him every day. I miss him every second. He is my baby. This poem is for him, borne out of my love for him and the pain that I feel every day that I miss him. Love you, Keanu. 

In the realm of whiskers and gentle purrs,

A tale unfolds of love that stirs.

Let me share the story of a feline star,

A precious companion, my cat Keanu, by far.

 

With eyes of amber, a gaze so deep,

He entered my life a promise to keep.

A playful spirit, a heart so kind,

Keanu, my friend, our fates are forever intertwined.

 

In days gone by, when dusk would fall,

He'd grace my lap, his rightful thrall.

His velvety touch, a soothing balm,

As we shared secrets, our souls were calm.

 

Through sunlit beams and shadows cast,

We danced as one, a perfect contrast.

His nimble paws, a ballet so sweet,

Tapping to the rhythm of love's heartbeat.

 

Oh, Keanu, you filled my days with grace,

With each tender meow, a warm embrace.

You taught me patience, compassion too,

A bond unbroken, through and through.

 

In twilight's hush, our whispers exchanged,

A symphony of love, forever unchanged.

From chasing shadows to midnight strolls,

Together we ventured, our spirits unrolls.

 

Through all the years, your presence has been divine,

You brought solace and joy, a love so fine.

In memories weaved, your paw prints remain,

Etched in my heart, an eternal refrain.

 

Though time may separate us, it seems,

I hold you close, within my dreams.

For you, dear Keanu, my soul does yearn,

A cherished connection, forever to discern.

 

So, my furry friend, on this poetic page,

I celebrate you, my life's true sage.

In every small thing you do and say,

You've left an indelible mark, In every way.

Broken Dreams

 

The love of my life, so dear and true, Betrayed my trust, and broke my heart in two. I thought our bond was strong and pure, But now, all I feel is pain, obscure.

The memories we shared, now marred by lies, The future we dreamed, now torn and despised. The life we built, now feels like a lie, A nightmare that I can't escape or deny.

I'm lost in a sea of grief and sorrow, Wondering how I'll survive tomorrow. The love I held, now turned to dust, Leaves me feeling broken, lost and crushed.

I try to move on, to find a way out, But the pain of her betrayal leaves me with doubt. How could she hurt me in this way, And leave me here to face each day?

But for my parents, I have to be strong, Even though it hurts, I must carry on. Nothing can heal my heart, and nothing will mend my soul, And nothing in this wide world will make me whole.

On A Walk

A very old one from my collection !! I am indeed feeling a lack of creativity these days making me repost a   situational one like this. Hope you guys enjoy it.

Dawn has found me unable to sleep;
nothing to do but walk. 
Through gray city streets I make my way 
‘neath a milky sky of chalk. 
While the living dead in silent streams 
play out their mournful roles, 
Hunger wastes their weakened flesh 
as terror grips their souls. 
Near a garbage can a starving mutt 
picks at a rotting bone. 
In a doorway filled with passion's treats 
two desperate lovers moan. 
On and on I trek waiting for the muse 
to fill my empty mind. 
A thousand words roll through my brain, 
but I can't pen one line. 
So in vain I walk these desolate streets 
of loss and silent pain, 
Among the tortured creatures of fate; 
gaunt faces dark and wane, 
Perhaps to find in this wash of souls 
some twisted inspiration. 
Or if truth be told to sate my own 
quiet desperation. 
Through a sobering rain I set my course 
returning to safe haven, 
Along avenues of hopeless yearning, 
past homeless and craven. 
There to nestle in my comfort zone of 
boredom and simple dread, 
Scribbling these heartless strokes of prose, 
sanctifying the dead.
At last to complete this masterpiece of 
profundity so deep. 
Then close my mind, my heart, my soul 
and quickly fall to sleep.

Why so Serious....??

Of late I have realized that I have become very Serious. And by that I mean generally serious...like occasionally moody or kind of gloomy too sometimes. I do laugh when I see the Big Bang Theory or something else but that's about it. Not even a bit more. Not even while talking to my parents. I do not know what triggered this mode in me, but it made me think whether I was moody and gloomy all my life and was of the general opinion that I was kind of a dull guy. Whatever be the case, I am really happy with the kind of mind set I am now. I am over my past. Have learnt a few valuable lessons about life and love, especially about love. And now, I am enjoying my solitude so much that I hardly feel lonely. Hence I promise to myself that I will start enjoying life once again. I will enjoy doing the things I love doing once again. Serious is the new me and I am loving it :)

I had not thought that I'd become,
                    A guy so lost in his past,
That even when life came calling,
                I was the one to know last.

But finally I caught up on time lost,
                       Swam up against the tide.
I lost everything that was of mine,
                    But am loving the lonely ride.

Another Year passed, and here I am, back to where it all started. I always used to write for others, but now, I just am writing this for myself for a change. I like it, and I hope that some of you like it too. Do leave your valuable feedback, if at all you do feel that something does not feel Right. As always, I am still learning.

A Requiem to my other self !!

I was standing at the window,

Just staring into nothing.

As my mind wandered into the darkness of my life,

And into thoughts that used to mean something.

Things that were so beautiful before,

Never did they look the same.

I had lost touch with my humanity,

I had lost my smile and my name.

I thought about all that i have been through,

All those things which caused me pain.

And those days of sadness and sorrow,

I did not want to live through again.

I realized that it was time to move on,

Thinking about the past was vain,

I got up from the chair at the window,

And walked towards my life again.

Hey Ppl, Its almost been an year now since my last post. One thing i wanted to share with all you guys is that, if at all you go through all my poems, you might see a trend emerge. A trend which indicates my life. Now at this stage, i can see that i have grown up since that first little scribble of a limerick i had written on my classroom bench about my English Teacher's Pointed Nose....lolz. (Shall share that with you sometime later.) But now, this is the story of my life.

Life has been simple,

Way too simple i should say.

I live like others wish to,

Others i passed along the way.

I wake up every morning,

See my face everyday.

I go through the whole day,

Putting on a mask of Clay.

One day i saw myself in the mirror,

And i thought of who I had become.

Living my life as a drone,

All my feelings gone Numb.

I saw it in my eyes,

The desire to break free.

I didnt go to work that day,

Wondering what was wrong with me.

I just lay on the bed,

Thinking of my life and what all I had done.

I began to loathe my life so much,

I wanted to leave it and run.

I saw my younger days flash by,

I looked at my foolish ways.

I remembered the confidence i had,

I remembered the good ol' days.

I now saw what i had become.

A drone who does what he is asked to do.

I wanted to obey my heart again.

Not some idiot who controlled me with Voodoo.

I got up and got going right then,

towards the path of being Awesome.

I knew that it was going to be difficult,

and that the path, very lonesome.

Someday, I will be back.

Someday, I will be Awesome.

Someday, I will.